Blue and Brown

It's only taken me 3 years but I finally painted my front living room. I also hung some picture frames that I got for mother's day, even though I don't have any pictures in them yet!!

I've been toying with the idea of a family tree, I have thought of many ways to do it, but I got this idea from Kaleb when he dipped his hand in blue paint and put it on my dark brown square. The idea stuck with me but instead of painting it on I used fabric. I cut the tree out of some fabric and put it on the wall with starch (yes starch), then I cut out all of our hand prints out of different fabrics and put them on with starch, Ellie's prints aren't on there yet I can't get her to hold still on my own and when Dane's home I am distracted by to many things. Anyway we want to add our parents and brothers and sisters and their kids prints to the wall, when we get them all on I will post more pics. So that was my project last week, the next couple of weeks I will be busy makin Halloween decor and costumes.

The new me!

I got my hair cut on Monday!! It was exciting since it had been about 4 months since my last cut. The hair on the back of my neck was getting irritating, it's funny how I use to love my long hair but the older I get the more I can't stand longer hair! I also colored it again, I went with the same red I had before I really liked it and Dane LOVES the darker color on me.

I love this style it's easy and quick, I use to have natural curly hair well I guess I still do but it's not tight curl like it use to be, it's just wavy and very frizzy. I miss my curly hair it disappeared when I had Ellie, hopefully it will come back but in the mean time I flat iron my hair and this style and length cuts my time in half, that way I can spend more time with the kiddos than in the bathroom :) Best of all I think this will really help with all of the headaches I have, my hair is so darn thick and heavy that the longer it is the more headaches I get. Anyway I will stop talkin now and let ya look at the pictures, just a warning I took the pictures myself so they aren't the best, they don't do the style or color justice. Anyway enjoy and let me know what you think :)

Confusion

I love my life and I would never trade it for anything, all the good and bad has made me into the person I am today, it's made me strong and I have learned so many things, but despite that,the bad parts do really SUCK. I am struggling with some things right now, it's one of those on going struggles that just feels like it will never end, I know it will eventually end but right now I am just in a dark place and having a hard time with it. My thoughts today are a little confusing to me, I know things will be fine and this isn't something I haven't dealt with before but for some reason I am more bothered by it today, then I have ever been before. Whenever I think about the problem it brings on a fresh batch of tears, and even though my hubby reassures me that everything is going to be fine(and I truly know that it will) I can't seem to be able to shake of this looming sadness. I also think that maybe it isn't just THIS issue that I am struggling with,maybe there are some other things that are also playing into, but that makes me wonder what they are cause honestly I have no clue.

Today was suppose to be MY day, I was planning on doing a few things by myself with NO kids and hubby dragging behind me, this may sound selfish but every once in awhile you really do have to take some time out for yourself, to take a step back and relax and gain some confidence before jumping back into your life with both feet. I wasn't able to go do the things I wanted because of this ISSUE, I think that's why I am so sad not so much because I am missing out on the things that I wanted to do I can always do them later, but I was just looking forward to being alone, and having some time to think without someone needing my attention, and even though I plan on locking my self in the bathroom while I take a hot bath it just isn't the same, because I am not really escaping and taking a step back from everything, I will still hear the kids screaming and banging on the door for me to let them in, and my hubby gettin mad cause of all the things they are doing or not doing, I will still hear the baby crying on the baby monitor and I will be thinking about everything, but nothing that I want to think about. And even though I could still go out and spend some time a lone for some reason it just isn't the same and I lost that desire.

It's funny that even though I am sad about not being able to spend some much needed time alone, I got a new drive to deep clean my house, and even though it's not what I want to be doing right now it is making me feel better. I look at around and see some of the things I have completed and it makes me feel like all that hard work was well worth it and I feel so accomplished. I guess that's they way I need to look at my life's struggles, even though it's not something that I want to deal with or do because of all the hard work and tears it entails, I know once that it is handled and over I will feel accomplished once more and have more confidence in my self to handle future issues.

I am actually feeling much better already, I new that if I sat down and wrote down all the thoughts in my head that I would be able to look at it and go that's it that's my problem? Cause now as I look at all I have written the issue at hand seems silly, and it just puts everything in perspective for me, I know that I can handle it, it really is nothing compared to other things I have dealt with before, my heart already feels lighter. :)

Blind as a bat!

This morning while I was doin Ryne's hair my glasses fell off my face and into the sink, were both the lens and the screw popped out, luckily for me I found the screw. While I was (blindly)trying to put the screw back in I dropped the glasses, loosing the black screw in my black carpet FANTASTIC!!! I have no choice but to put in my 1 and only contact, seriously what choice did I have!? I spent more than half my day half blind, really I am legally blind without my glasses or contacts and let's face it I am the most uncoordinated person your ever gonna meet(I'm worse than an elephant wearin a tutu dancin ballet), add blurry vision on top of that and let's just say it isn't pretty!!

I called my Dr. office to see if I could get in today and as my luck would have it he was only workin till 2 today and I needed an appointment AFTER 2, I was holding back my tears, I didn't know what else to do, my attempts at rigging my glasses failed, and I was out of ideas, so I explained to this nice gal on the phone what the deal was she was very nice and very helpful, she said that she could give me a pair of trial contacts until I could get in to see the DR.!!!! HALLELUJAH!!I just wanted to go through that phone and give her a great big hug! Dane picked up the contacts on his way home from work and I am proud to say that I can SEE, and I am so grateful!!! My headache is almost gone now, and I was actually able to clean my house once I could see were all the messes were!! And the best part was that Dane figured I had a pretty rough day so he bought a pizza for dinner so I don't have to cook!! What a great guy. :) So that was my drama today, it was one of those" you have got to be kidding me" situations that you feel could only happen to you and all you can do is laugh!!

Labor day weekend

So how was your labor day weekend? Ours was pretty good. Saturday we took these little monsters(oh I mean angels that NEVER do anything wrong and ALWAYS listen and obey!) to dinner and a movie.

We had dinner at Mi Amigos and then we went and saw Night at the Museum 2 at the cheap $1 theatre. I thought the movie was good at least the parts that I actually got to see, I swear Ryne has the smallest bladder in the whole, she was going to the bathroom literally every 10 minutes!!! Kaleb did good for most of the movie, the last 20 mins were a sruggle though, he kept falling out of his seat cause he was goofing off he has quite a bruise collection. Ellie also did good for most of the movie she did struggle the last 10 mins or so. Over all it was an enjoyable night, I especially liked the part when we got home and all 3 kids were more than ready for bed!!

We went to church on Sunday it was very nice at least the parts that I actually got to listen too!! Ellie was being a little grumpy gus! Sunday night, Ryne Kaleb and I all laid on the air mattress and listened to Dana read Harry Potter, I was the only one that didn't fall asleep!

Monday we had planned on going to the zoo and then swimming, but this little monster (angel) tweaked our plans a little when she lost my last contact!!!

We ended up spending most of our day at America's Best were I couldn't get a prescription because my eyes were irritated and a little swollen(it could have been from the fact that I had been crying cause the contact was lost! I know I am such a baby!!) so I have to go back in 2 weeks, but I am actually going to go to my regular eye dr. this week for the contacts, I know why did I go to America's Best when I already have and eye dr and eye insurance? 1st cause America's Best was the only place open yesterday and 2 they have really good deals on their glasses and I REALLY need new glasses ,the ones I have are 6 yrs old and falling apart and I am blind as a bat without them(no joke, I am actually considered legally blind without my glasses or contacts!!). Once there we realized that getting contacts there would be stupid, it would be much better(and cheaper) to get the glasses there then use our eye insurance to get the contacts(since my insurance only covers one or the other), so there ya go. After America's best we walked the mall, then we went and got some lunch at McDonalds (we let the kids choose) and let the kids play, once we got home Dane took the older kids swimming while I stayed home with the sleeping baby!! Man what an exhausting weekend we had, it was fun spending time with the family, we had more ups than downs, it was great. ;)

Cookies

After Kaleb and I cleaned the house we decided we needed a treat so we made chocolate chip oatmeal cookies, sooooo YUMMY!! Kaleb enjoyed measuring and pouring in the ingedients, I enjoyed spending some one on one time with Kaleb.

Highs and lows of our camping trip.

Now that Ryne is at school and the younger kids are asleep I thought I would share some high and lows from our camping trip.

High- We all were so happy on Thursday to get out of AJ and the heat, especially since there were record high temperatures.

Low- We had no a/c in the car and the windows on the passenger side wouldn't roll up.

High-We set up camp easily and without incident(like last yr when Kaleb broke a tent poll)so we were done before it got dark.

Low- We were tired and ready for bed but all the kids took naps and were wired.

High-We went to bed by 9

Low- It got pretty cold and I was up most of the night with Ellie and Kaleb

High- We had a great day on Friday, we went for a hike, and flew kites and collected fire wood.

Low- Kaleb was confused about going potty in the woods, he thought if he went behind a tree he would get in trouble and so he resorted to peeing his pants, he went through all of the clothes I had taken for him so I had to do laundry see.....

High- We had a great lunch on Friday, chicken quesedillas and rice crispy treats.

Low-I had to cook!! LOL

High- A porta-potty was delivered Friday afternoon

Low- Kaleb was fascinated and wouldn't stay out of it. (he was even giving tours, and guarding it.)

High-Saturday morning we(I) got the camp all packed up early, so we could have the afternoon to hang out.

Low- I missed breakfast with the ward and had to eat my pancakes cold. :(

High- The kids had fun making bows and arrows, we took a couple of cute family pictures

Low- We had to go home, and endure the heat and windows that wouldn't roll up :(

So that was our trip in a nut shell, were there's highs there's lows and were there's lows there's highs.